My Situation

(CAVEAT: Expect grammatical errors.)
Yesterday I had a discussion with my beloved siblings. They were talking about buying homes and my sister wanted to buy a house along with me. Under different circumstances, I would love to buy a house in a heartbeat with my sister and live with her and her kids. My sister and her husband have split up indefinitely; the story here is quite complicated, let’s just say both sides made a terrible mistake. Nevertheless, this relationship is a mixed blessing, because Lil’ Gaby and Lil’ Jakey would not be if this union did not take place. I do not know how to approach this with my family and siblings. In a nutshell, I am in love, although not always faithful and it pains me. Nevertheless, I am in love. I love her and I want her and I need her, her beauty is ageless, her soul is eternal, her lips are like sugar, her bosom comforts me and fills me with so much love. Her name is Holy Mother Church. Yes, I love the Church because this Church leads me to my Lord and Savior JESUS. The thing is I think I am being called to serve this Church as a priest. Right now, I am trying to tie loose ends. I am thinking about, GOD willing, enrolling at the seminary and finish what I started. When I was in high school, I felt GOD calling me to serve him as a priest and I left for the seminary but I was not ready. I was too attached to worldly ideas and thoughts. Heck, I was not ready for college either. I still wanted to party and hang out and thus not serious about discerning the priesthood and I left the seminary with the idea of coming back. GOD is calling and I would like to have the Church determine if I have a genuine call to serve GOD as priest. This is why I cannot buy a house and get in debt, because regardless if the Church rejects me I plan to serve GOD as a catechist and live in a condominium. I just wish I knew for sure and that I will be attending seminary, but anything can happen.